- 27 Jul 2018
Path to my spiritual awakening
This is me! My story, my journey!
I never knew I would end up like this. Never pictured myself here in a million years. But the clarity of my present mind has seen every event leading up to this moment. Right here, right now.
This is the AWAKENING OF A HEALER EMPATH! A CRITICAL moment in any persons life. That moment when everything becomes clear. My life, purpose, and why I am here. I know I am here to help!
It didn't happen over night. It has been slowly happening for years. But after a series of events, it happened much quicker. Sometimes you have to lose it all before you realize just what you have. Deep inside you. For u already know everything you need to know. Wake up!
I have always had an overwhelming, underlying urge to help people. But with such a desire also came a lot of burdens. I had a hard time as a child. I was lost, angry, sad and couldn't understand why.
It took me many years of therapy, prescription drugs, and love lost between family members to finally figure everything out. I never had any guidance on being an empath. I didn't have anyone to explain to me that my feelings weren't always my own. An empath is a person who is able to feel what others feel. Whether it be human, animal, or earth. There are many kinds of empaths. I am a healer empath. These feelings are very hard to decipher between your own feelings. I can feel certain energies around me. And I absorb them into myself. I actually take on the energies around me.
As a child I was labeled as BIPOLAR, DEPRESSED, HAVING A CHEMICAL INBALANCE DISORDER, AND MY FAVORITE... HAVING A BORDERLINE CHARACTERISTIC DISORDER. My mother was extremely empathic. But my father was the opposite. No he wasn't a narcissist. He was literally not capable of feeling certain emotions due to brain damage from a motorcycle accident.
When my parents were 18 they were both involved in a motorcycle accident. They were hit at a four corner stop, by a drunk driver. My dad went under the truck and my mom flew over it. If my dad wasn't wearing a helmet he would have been dead. He still suffered from crushed ribs, broken femur in two places, crushed and fused ankle, artificial hip and knee. Those are just a few things that he suffered from. Among many yrs of surgeries, and recovering from said surgeries. I always thought of my dad as the bionic man. The toughest, and hardest working man I have ever met.
The brain damage made it so my father had to relearn emotions. I was only able to hear stories of my dad before the accident, and the brain damage. It had turned him into a whole different person. He was an amazing role model for a daddy's girl like me. So I was brought up by an overly emotional, spiritual, and all around awesome mother. And a father who was actually unable to feel certain emotions.
Back to helping people, or the need there of. I have held many positions in my life. Cashier, personal aid for mentally handicapped people, teacher's aid, LPN, manager of a gas station, and finally... An entrepreneur. And used each position to help who I could. But it was just recently that everything had changed. I was a manager of a gas station for almost 11 yrs. Living my day to day. Work, work, work. I was always noticing that I seemed to have more compassion and empathy then most others doing the same job. Then a few yrs ago I had a hysterectomy. Which messed with my hormones, and made me lost once again. Changed me completely. Made me feel crazy. With new panic attacks, anxieties, and the inability to deal with stressful situations.... more to come... stay tuned...
Follow along with ME as I grow!
Feel free to leave me comments... Would love to hear about other people's journeys, awakenings, or anything else u would like to share!